Now is the Time

The moon is waning, and I am feeling that it is finally the time to start releasing my weight. It has protected me during duress and now it can be safely released as I no longer need it. I am safe and I am calm. I am grateful to have access to so much delicious food. I am grateful to have a husband who accepts my body no matter what it looks like right now. I am grateful to have a body that can function and perform all of the things I like to do. I am grateful for my muscles, and tendons, and fat, and skin, and organs, and all of my cells. I am grateful for my continued health and for all of the opportunities I receive every day. I am grateful to have access to a gym, the outdoors, and a yoga studio as well as my own wealth of knowledge on fitness and nutrition.

Having undergone several rounds of hypnosis recently I have been able to do some nurturing on my own self and realized I had been neglecting certain aspects of my being. I am supported spiritually, and mentally, and physically, but my emotional self has been ignored, overlooked because her composure hides her feelings. The truth is, she is sad and lonely. I know, it was a shock to me, too. I am seen as a happy, energetic soul with a huge open heart, surrounded by many friends. That is true, and I am grateful for that! I have been neglecting myself, overshadowing my emotional needs with my need to complete tasks for school, or take care of my family, or do nothing but numb myself so I don't feel the sad loneliness that seems so out of place.

This blog doesn't have a happy ending, this is only the opening sequence up to the inciting incident. The story will unfold over time. Join me on this adventure of self-discovery and I aim to find and hug the sad part of me and allow her to become another happy part! When this occurs I am sure my protective armor of flesh and fat will be metabolized into outstanding awesomeness that I will graciously share with every living creature I meet. Blessings.

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