It's the End of the World!!!! No, it's not....

So, I didn't write or record a video yesterday, I didn't post anything to my blog. You know what? The world is still going. It didn't come to a screeching halt, or end in a fiery explosion because I failed to meet an arbitrary daily goal that I set for myself.

Yet, in the past, I may have looked at this very type of event, and indeed did, as proof that I was unaccountable, even to myself. That I was, and always will be a failure who can't commit, lazy and uninspired, just a lump with some long ago talked about “potential”. What a downer I was! Holy crap, really?

These little goals are to set us up for success! We should choose things we like to do and always said we would do someday. They should not be tests of our very worth. I enjoy writing, I like it very much, I love words and how they look and sound and feel when I say them out loud. I am a writer. I was getting very jealous and angry about people who were writing books I could have, but didn't. Stories of weight loss “72 pounds off for 10 years”, it was exactly my story too, exactly the same number of pounds and the time kept off. The only difference is she wrote the book, so she was on the morning talk show circuit. Or home chefs who become famous for just putting up things on YouTube. I could do that, but I didn't. It was easier to be self-righteous.

Then, it wasn't anymore. I want to write, why am I stopping myself? Oh, fear. Fear that I won't be perfect right away. Fear that nobody will read my stuff, or even worse hate me for it. Fear of being judged for my opinions. FEAR. So, I decided to suspend all judgment of my work, and only read through it to correct spelling errors, but I don't over think it. I really don't know what I am going to write when I sit down here. I just let it come through me onto the virtual paper and then I'll share it with the world...wow.

My video blogs are very liberating in that I will not alter my appearance to look better on screen. However I look is however I look at that moment. I look lots of different ways, we all do. That's the point. There is no ultimate universal perfect. There is only the perfection that lies in being authentically you, then you will be the perfect you. It's you destiny and your birth right. You are already perfect.